Baby Gurley!

I found out on August 2 that my very best friend, Katie Williams Gurley, is pregnant! AH! I am so excited for her and Stan! They've been married for 3 years now (their anniversary is May 5) and they always said that they would be married for 5 years before they had a baby. Apparently not! :) I think Katie and Stan are going to be awesome parents, and their baby will be SO cute! I would write about this on my regular blog, but Katie just barely told her parents last night and I don't want to tell everyone before she gets a chance to.

I won't lie, I'm kind of jealous. While I'm grateful to not be pregnant, sometimes I feel like I should just starting having babies so I can get it over with and start raising my own little family. I'm so redundant and I apologize, but Mike and I are going to wait and I'm happy for that. When it's our time, we'll know. I have faith that the Lord will help us know when the time is best for us--not perfect, because it's never perfect timing, but best.

Congrats, Katie & Stan! I can't wait to see baby Gurley in 9 months! :D

"Accurate"

I was recently reading one of my friend's blogs, talking about her pregnancy. She wrote about all the applications she downloaded on her iPod for pregnancy, online things, etc. I decided to search"online pregnancy test" just to see what would come up: thepregnancytester.com. Apparently the computer "scans" you for pregnancy...I know, right? Apparently this is my situation: I am pregnant with a boy, who will be six pounds, four ounces. What's even funnier is that the next section of the quiz is "Who's the Daddy?" Haha! Are you kidding? Apparently the father of my internet baby is the sheriff guy from Dukes of Hazzard.

Sorry Mike.

Conflicting Feelings

Mike & I have been married for two years next month, and not for one second of those two years have I wanted a baby. That's not to say that I don't like kids, because I do. I have the most adorable and fun nieces and nephews known to man and I love all of them so much. Lately, however, I feel like my feelings about being a mom are changing.

Right now is the first summer that Mike is working for Platinum Protection. Things are going well, and we'll probably continue to move away each summer and try to make money. Some of the wives out here either have adorable little ones or are trying to get them. Combine that with missing my family like crazy, and here we are.

I really want a baby. I really don't want a baby.

See the predicament?

Sometimes I think I'm pregnant and I get really freaked out, and then quickly excited. I start thinking of ways to tell Mike and if I'll get sick or not and how I'll tell my family. Then I find out I'm not pregnant, and it makes me sad. I'm grateful, because I want to finish school first, but I'm still sad.

I think that's God's whole plan in action. I'm one of those chicks who wants to do something with her life. I want to get my Bachelor's degree, go to Cosmetology school for makeup, get voice lessons up and running, and be in community theatre. If I had a baby, I couldn't do most of that, and it depresses me. However, I know that having a baby would bring me more joy than if I did all of those things--and that's why I know that God's plan is the right one...for women to be mothers, because we need to mother.

No worries, we're still not planning to have a baby for awhile, but I've come to terms with the fact that even if I don't think I'm ready, God will know when I'm ready. I just have to have faith that things will work out. One thing I know for sure: Mike is going to be an awesome daddy!